Sunday, March 17, 2013

Tough week – need to learn to shut my thoughts off while I am at Crossfit


This was by far my toughest workout week I have had!! After doing WOW 13.1 I was feeling pretty impressed with what I was capable of doing! Then Sunday came and I was a little hung-over from the night before and tried to go for a run, I only made it a mile and was exhausted! Monday came and I had a lot of my mind, work has been super busy and everything was irritating me! I went to crossfit hoping that the distraction of the workout would help – it didn't  We did Angie and I couldn't get through the sit-ups because of my tailbone and instead had to hang from the bar and crunch my knees up. I just couldn't hold my grip and was getting irritated. I ended up finishing the workout but didn't feel that normal – wow I just did that feeling.

Tuesday was another difficult day as it just seemed that anything that could spike my anxiety was spiking it into high gear! Again I went to Crossfit hoping for another distraction but couldn't get out of my own head! We were working on snatches and I couldn't hit one – I had just hit 30 on Saturday and couldn't get the bar up. Then we moved to the WOD and I couldn't jump on the box because my tailbone was hurting again. I was very frustrated because for the first time since joining I really wasn't giving it 100% and was miserable.

Then Wednesday night 13.2 was announced. At first I wasn't too scared – I mean if only I could do a proper jerk I could get 75lbs overhead right??? Since I was going out of town this weekend I needed to get the workout done Friday. I had asked Dave to judge me as I know he would get me to stop thinking and through the workout but again I couldn't get out of my own head. Watching the workout prior to doing it and then seeing another member get sick after didn't help my head!! I was stuck – then I started to workout and the first 5 shoulder overhead presses were hard but I made it through them, then the dead-lifts and box jumps went smooth – what didn't go smooth was the next set of shoulder overheads! I couldn't get one, couldn't get out of my own head! I probably attempted it 10 -15 times and only got 3 to count. The workout was over and I had hoped to get through 4-5 rounds and I only did 1!

I was very disappointed in myself and Dave was trying to remind me that I am still new and still developing my skills but it still sucked!! While in Boston I was able to shut my brain off and have a great time! Today on the ride back I was still thinking about 13.2 and how disappointed I was but knew I was in no shape to try it again – although I was very excited for all my new friends killing it and even doing it multiple times!

As I was unpacking and putting my clothes away I found my goal sheet from BootCamp:  

My short term goal was to keep up the motivation to work out and complete boot camp - check

My Mid-Term Goal (set by Kevin) – 3-4 visits/week consistency = results – check

My Long Term Goal(s) – Lose 25-30 pounds/tone up (am down 18 since starting boot camp) 
                                       Learn how to become accountable for my health – check
                                       Look good in a bathing suit in Aruba this July – getting there!

As I read through my goal sheet the last question mentions what problems may arise and how will I deal with them? My answer – losing motivation and my solutions – continue to be around positive people who will motivate me to work out and make smarter choices!!!

 So now that the 90 days are coming to an end I need to learn to shut my brain off during workouts and continue to surround myself with the awesomeness that is crossfit!! I have made so much progress since joining here – physically and mentally that I don’t want to go back to where I once was!!! Hopefully this bump in the road was small and I can get back on track for the last two weeks of the 90 days and to achieve my long term goals!! 

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